Monday, July 10, 2006
hahs.. sch started.. lost my pool comp on sunday.. nt very sad or wad.. some experience gain.. today sch.. quite funny la.. on e way to sch.. took 89.. then was like quite urgent nature's call already.. then reach hougang inter.. wanted go toilet first.. but scared miss my bus.. so din go.. later on 74.. i realised i forgot the journey was like 1 hour +++ ... and so.. WAS LIKE SUPER URGENT.. burst anytime.. lol.. but in the end alight bus rushed to sch's toilet la... didnt pee on my pants.. class quite big.. 70+ ppl.. but still ok.. can concentrate.. hahas... new place .. new friends.. new classmates.. hahs.. though i always advise frens bout relationship , life .. bla bla.. when it comes to myself.. im real craps.. hahs.. im always stucked within myself.. u brought me up to the top.. then u pushed me down all the way.. i cant stand up already?? .. cant pick myself up.. im trying like super hard to erase some memories.. but.. i really cant? like in those drama shows.. they walk back to the place tht they went b4 with ppl tht left them memories.. kinda appear in their mind? .. everytime i go past the place we went b4.. i can really sense it.. our existence thr b4.. hahs.. im trying to keep myself happy and i hate being alone at night at home.. cause i tend to think?.. hahs.. im mad when im with friends.. make myself laugh like crazy.. laugh n laugh.. but after laughter... everything goes back to normal.. i dunno whr am i in u.. do u still take me as ur gd fren? or even a fren.. hahs.. things have changed.. i enjoyed the times with u.. really did.. hope u did.. hahs.. but nw.. like an invisible barrier?.. lol.. i cant reach out to u anymore.. u and i now are like from different worlds.. and even hw hard i try to reach out to u.. u dun seem to even wanna talk to me.. hahs.. is this e end for us? u say u dun wanna lose e frenship.. but .. u also dun seem to do anything to make this frenship last? hahs.. i dun even noe wad you're thinking already.. i dun even noe whether am i ur fren... or jus.. another person tht stepped into ur life.. and left.........
What a feeling!
